As we pull back onto the road I stare straight ahead. I can't look at him, I know he's mad. I can feel him staring at me between glances at the road. Finally I slowly face him. I was shocked at what I saw. I've never seen Johnny cry before, I started to shake "baby please don't be mad at me, I didn't see any other way. I was so scared I'd loose you. I didn't know what else to do. " I wipe the tears from his face, seeing him cry out of fear for me makes me feel horrible for the accusations. "Johnny I'm sorry I thought you cheated I..." He put his hand on my leg and squeezed it to stop me "Listen to me. I love you with everything I have, and you doing what you did today reminds me of how amazing you are. You had no fear, you saved our lives babe. But you can't ever do that again!" I promised I would never act so impetuous again. He smiled and I laid my head on his chest as he put his arm around me. As he drove I fell asleep. I don't know how long we'd been travelling but when I woke up it was dark. Johnny was shaking me gently. "Wake up go sleep in the back seat" I leaned into him "no I don't want to be away from you."He leaned his seat back and pulled me in close. I gently traced his chest with my finger tips "why is this happening again how did they find us? I thought you said it was over!" He takes my hand in his and kisses it gently "all I can think of is someone knew where we were going. Did you tell anyone or call anyone?" I hadn't told anybody i left everything behind. Johnny was all I had. "no nobody"
Whatever the reason we were running again. And all of this because Johnny was a great cop.
A year ago he was working in Chicago with the anti gang unit. I guess he was too good at his job because he took down a drug house and shot some pretty big people. They grabbed me and thought he'd roll over and die. They were wrong. He got me and we ran. He never would have left if it hadn't been for me. He would have stayed and killed as many as he could before they got him. I begged him to run with me, watching him die was more than I could have bared.
I could feel his breath relaxing but I knew he was still awake, he wouldn't sleep tonight. He'd hold me and he'd watch for other cars. I tried to stay awake, wanting to feel his arms around me. "Johnny" "Ya?" "Can't we just leave and go somewhere else? I mean it worked before!" I leaned on his chest and looked into his eyes. "Baby I wish it was that easy. If they found us here then no where is safe. I have to end this" I sat up and glare at him "what do you mean YOU have to end this. Do you honestly think I'm leaving you alone? "He was about to answer but I cut him off " there's no way that I'm gonna sit back and watch them try to kill you. I'd rather die with you than be here without you" He bolted up in his seat "don't you ever say that. You are my responsibility! I will always protect you" "how the fuck can you protect me if your dead!" I jerked open the car door and got out. I don't know where I was going, but I felt like I was going to explode! I could hear him yelling for me to stop and come back. He started running after me. I stopped and turned to face him, tears streaming down my face "you don't get to make this decision Johnny. I'm coming with you! Don't you dare leave me behind!" He took my face in both hands and stared into my eyes "I promise you that we will finish this together I won't leave you I promise" he pulled me closer and kissed me so deeply. I'd never felt him kiss me like that before. I got lost in him. He leaned back and smiled slyly "Come on baby, lets go back to the car, I'm pretty sure both of us will fit in that back seat"
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