I felt like a rag doll laying in his arms. He keep checking to make sure I was breathing. I could feel his lips on my neck. He barely moved, like he was afraid he'd break me. I was really, weak but I tried to sit up, Johnny stirred "are you ok? What's wrong?" I smiled "I'm fine just feeling like hammered shit" it was nice to see a smile cross his face. He stood up and took my arms so I could stand. I was dizzy, felt like I was gonna puke. I slid sideways against the wall, he grabbed me. "C'mon lets get out of here and see if your brothers here yet." We walked out of the washroom. We didn't take 5 steps when I heard a familiar voice "What the fuck happened?" Sean looked like he'd been panicked all night "I told you on he phone, the cops came and took the car, we spent the night in the woods" Johnny walked towards him, expecting Sean to embrace him and let him know their feud was over " no I mean what the hell did you do to my sister. I can't fucking believe this, can't you keep her safe?" Johnny stopped dead in his tracks shocked "I stumbled forward "Sean shut up! Johnny's always kept me safe!" Sean stared at me "oh really were you safe when you got stabbed last year, after being kidnapped by a bunch of gangbangers? And what happened this time you look like death!" Johnny stepped up beside me and steadied my body "Sean man it was fuckin cold, she fell asleep and went into shock there was nothing I could do. I saw what happened and grabbed her and brought her inside you know I never..." Sean cut him off, he grabbed his throat and threw him against the wall. I yelled for him to stop. I knew that Johnny wouldn't hurt Sean, he felt too guilty for that, but I've seen what Sean could do all my life and I was terrified. "Get your fuckin hands off me Sean you're wrong and you know it!" Johnny shoved Sean backward and threw him to the ground. Sean shook himself off and stood up. I'd had enough "are you guys done?" They stopped and turned to look at me. "Cause I'm fuckin hungry, and it's still cold out here so put em away guys this is stupid. It's not a competition of who can protect me for fuck sakes and Sean, Johnny did eveything last night that he could, it was just the way it went. I'm tired of not having the only two ppl I love together! You guys are like brothers, how can you act this way? Stop this shit and let's figure out what the fuck to do next" I stood there staring at them both,. Sean smiled and walked towards me. "I have to say you've definitely found your voice. So I know this son of a bitch has done something right!" I smirked and hugged him "ya wait til I tell what I did yesterday" Johnny jumped forward and stopped me "so lets get the hell out if here, and get you into some warm dryer clothes!" I glanced at him as he shook his head at me.
We both climbed into the backseat, Johnny wanted to stay close to me and, considering what happened the last time I was in the back seat, I didn't blame him. He stretched his legs onto the seat, I pushed him over "you didn't sleep all night come here. " I pulled him down into my lap and started playing with his hair. He resisted at first and then he slid one arm under my thigh and after rubbing my leg he drifted off. I talked to Sean about the last year. About that night and how Johnny hated himself. Sean decided that it didn't matter anymore, we were all together now and that's what mattered.
We pulled into the driveway of the cabin and climbed out. I went into the bathroom to change into one of Sean's shirts and joggers. I could hear them in the living room talking about what they were going to do. I peeked through the door and saw Johnny sitting on the couch with his head in his hands. Sean sat beside him. My life was right again, I had them both. I walked out and stood in front of them. Sean looked at us both "you guys need sleep if we're gonna pull this off. I'll wake ya's in a while" we walked up the stairs to the guest room and climbed into bed.
It felt so good to lay down under the heavy blanket. I was still shivering from the night before. "Come here baby" Johnny was laying under the blanket in a pair of Sean's joggers with his arms open "I'm so cold still!" "It'll pass, body warmth helps you know" I laughed and moved into his body. I laid there on my side with his arm around me and my head on his shoulder. I loved Johnny's body. It was perfect his muscles were toned and his skin was bronzed, but every time we laid like this I could see every scar on his chest. He'd never really told me how he got them he never talked about it. I traced each scar with my finger tip and then kissed each one when I was done. He looked up at me a smiled "why do you do that?" "I can stop if you like" I smiled down at him "no not that, why do you kiss my scars?" I laid on his body and propped myself up on his chest "because I love you and they are a part of you, and because I know that every scar you have has made you the man that I love" his eyes softened as he stared at me "Johnny I love every part of you, your body, your mind, your passion. The way it feels when you touch me. How soft your mouth is when we kiss and your scars every last one!" He smiled softly " you know what I love baby" I smirked "what do you love?" he softly touched the side of my face " I love your determination, and the way you don't put up with my bull shit. I love your soft skin and the way it feels under my finger tips but what I love most is that when I look into your eyes I see you. All of you, your heart and soul, I see my future." I sighed and leaned towards him he took my face in both hands and stared into my eyes then he pulled me closer and softly kissed my lips. I ran my fingers through his hair and pressed my body against him. He ran his fingers down my side and took off my shirt rolling me into my back. He looked at me longingly "one day I'm gonna make you my wife" I smiled and traced his lips with my finger "Johnny I will never leave you" he smiled and took me in his arms, we were lost to the world exploring each other like we had never done before.
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