I walked inside and dropped onto the couch. I sat there and looked through the room. Everywhere I turned I saw Sean. We had been coming here since we were kids. So many memories. I felt numb and I couldn't move. Johnny was bringing the rest of the gear in from the car. Neither of us had said a word the whole way back. My eyes were puffy and my head pounded. Johnny looked numb. He hadn't shed a tear since the house and he probably wouldn't again over Sean. That's the way he was he'd hide his emotions and bury them, that's where he got his passion from sadly.
He walked in from the kitchen and sat a plate in front of me "eat this baby sorry but pizzas all there is." He chuckled slightly and sat on the couch beside me. Sean always had pizza in the fridge. I picked at the piece on my plate but barely ate it. "What do we do next. Do we have to run again? Are we going to jail?" He took my hand as I turned to look at him. " no we aren't running anymore. You deserve a better life. I'm gonna call my old Capt. and turn myself in. Maybe they can make a case for self defence and I'll be out in a few years, who knows. But you'll have a normal life" I sat legs crossed on the couch and faced him "Johnny how would life be normal if the man I love is in jail? This isn't right I don't want to run but I'd rather run with you, than stay here without you!" He played with my fingers and when he looked up his eyes were so soft "if I can get a deal I'll be gone five years tops, that's nothing compared to the rest of our lives together. This is the best way to go. I want to have a life and a family with you. I don't want to have to run and hide all the time. I'm calling him now. Don't worry baby it's gonna be fine!" I gave in, I was all cried out. I trusted Johnny and I nodded my head. He got up and took the phone out on the deck.
I sat silent trying to hear what was being said, but I couldn't hear anything. I was terrified of losing him, but I knew he was right. He came back inside a half hour layer and he seemed almost hopeful. "What did he say Johnny?" He sat in the chair across from me "he said they had been trying to raid that house for months. He said normally there was alot more ppl there and we were lucky enough to have gone on a night when just the bosses, and their personal body guards were home. I'd wondered why it was so empty." I felt my face flush "so what does that mean are they going to take it easy on you?" He smirked "best if all it means that there's no one left to come after us! I don't really know about the rest. I have to turn myself in tomorrow, he's gonna do what he can. I told him about last year and why we ran. He wants to help. I also told him about Sean being in the house" he sighed deeply. "Ok so tomorrow we go into his office and then what?" "He'll have to arrest me and we will both be questioned. As far as they are concerned you were dragged into police business. I was never fired so as far as anyone knows I was on extended leave" I couldn't help but smile. He looked at me "I told you it's gonna be ok. A bit of time in jail will do me some good" I stood up and took my plate to the sink. He came behind me and put his arms around my waist. "Just wait, before you know it I'll be back home and we can plan the next step for our lives." "Ok I believe you. Five years I can do that. And I can visit you and write to you all the time" he nuzzled my neck "and send me sexy pictures so I'm not lonely at night" he smirked. I shoved him back as he laughed at me. In my heart I could hear Sean "to much info guys" and then it passed.
We climbed the stairs to the guest room and undressed in the dark. All I wanted was for him to lay beside me while I slept. We climbed into bed and laid facing each other, his body loomed over mine as we laid as close as we could without touching. I traced the scars on his chest with my fingertip and kissed each one. He gulped and looked at me in the dark. I've never told you how I got those did I." I shifted under his gaze "no you didn't." He gave me a sly look "Sean told you didn't he, when I was out in the car. That's what he wanted to talk to you about!" I smiled "ya he said he knew that you would die for me because you got those saving his life" Johnny jumped "he told you that? Son of a bitch. Babe I didn't get these saving him. He saved me. We were under heavy fire I was hit real bad. Sean grabbed me and pulled me into an alley just as a frag went if in the street, he shielded me with his body" I was shocked I didn't know what to say. "Why would he do that, why'd he lie up me?" He looked over my head "So you'd stay with me. He didn't want you going after him in that house, he knew he wasn't gonna make it back." His voice was shaking "he did this on purpose, he never had any intention of getting out" his words stopped me dead. I had no idea what to say. "The night we met when you came here, Sean didn't tell me you were coming. I was surprised cause he normally doesn't have me here through the week. He planned it all Johnny. He knew he wasn't always gonna be there for us" he cut me off "and he knew that I'd love you, as soon as I looked into your eyes" he softly kissed me and we fell asleep in each others arms.
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